food 4 thought.

Aquarius (1/20-2/18)
If things in your social life aren't going the way you want them to right now, the last thing you should do is throw yourself a pity party! No one really wants to be invited to one of those. Instead, try to focus on taking control of your life again. Don't let your emotionality ruin the things you want to do. Just because you don't have every little thing lined up doesn't mean that you can't go further towards your goal. It's time to stop feeling sorry for yourself and start having fun.

so just read this...&& made me snap out of it sort of.
i guess i always am okay just have those days when i want what i want && i'm use to just having things my way all thee time. i don't like that i get like that but am making thee effort to change for thee better. i will always have it better then half these loser kiiidds. really "friend" made me really think about it && what did he really have to offer me? i mean...i had thee cars. thee family. ["cool ass uncle"] thee money. thee friends. thee freedom. thee job. no baggage. yikes what did he really offer? i mean not getting materialistic here but really! it's not like thee kiidd did a lot for me emotionally either right? i mean cool ass friend i agree but he had thee drama. all thee others on thee side which made me not a priority. made me another girl on his list. i have thee loyalty && obviously thee HONESTY. i love thee kiidd to death i won't deny, but it really was just me building up a great person in my head that he really wasn't. hmm. not sure if i'm getting this out right but it is what it is for thee moment of me writing this && that's not what i deserve. i won't lie though he still gives me butterflies...&& i still melt when he wraps me in his arms. && that smile will forever make me weak at thee knees...but i'm better then that. i'm blessed && glad i'm not thee stupid girl anymore that feels has to go out of her way to try && prove she's better...i just know i am. && will always have it better. && no matter what i had thee upper hand...&& we have more in common than ever known. ahaha that's thee part that makes me laugh.
idk...sorry if i'm blabbing on && on like i said i'm just writing what comes to mind. i really do love my life && everyone in it! i don't repeat myself to sound like i'm convincing myself...more so just to keep reminding myself how grateful && blessed i am. god really has blessed me. <33



with love,
A.