b.i.a.

so i've been hiding for a good minute.
yiikes. buuuuuut i'm back.
so i've been reading my old blogs...man boys boys boys.
nothing ever changes. i'm super lame sometimes.
hey it happens. whatever. i don't care enough anymore. they're all thee same, nothing changes...even if its a different guy. i can't even hurt anymore...you have to want something bad enough for it to make a difference...i just don't more than half thee time. it's just not worth thee crying and being in a lame mood. but i must say my girls help make it all better.

fatty's are getting so big.
omg rye never shuts up. ahaha such a freakin parrot.
"fucker" ahahaha he's a total terrible two.
sarah is my princess bubba! omg her && her green eyes are gorgeous.
these two are my life. actually thee best part of it. i really love seeing them change into every stage. sarah is starting to actually laugh now. soooooo cute. thee other two are just something else. not even gonna go there. but i must say i love && miss my kimmy && khlo.

being laid off was great. ugh but now i'm puttin in work. it's all good though.
work then school is thee life again. oh fun. aha how i manage to have a life still amazes even me. i'm behind soooooo many hours of sleep. ahah but i have thee rest of mylife to sleep...right?

had a great summer. made new friends. new boys. [no keepers still] bass lake was great. hawaii was even better. can't wait for vegas in two weeks.* keep up kidds.

listening to a lot of r&b debating a lot. if i should even bother. idk. how do you keep your past, disappointments in your past, things other people have done to you...how do you keep an open mind for others. how do you learn to trust people again? and not hold on to thee bad experiences. idk. i'm open to suggestions. help. i feel like it's only a matter of time till thee next guy comes along && does thee same thing...i'm trying not to think that way...but i just have yet to be proved wrong.
back to work.


with love,
A.